Happy NEW Year --2006..!@!

2005 as sped by…….Now, we need to face 2006

I am on my holidays these days..!! So, U must be thinking, thats great.., Isnt it..to get holidays during job..seems to be like seeing a Dinasours in 21st century...But i am on holidays for total of 9 days...and joing my work again in a new year...Its seems that the coming year is bringing new hopes and prospectus for me..Its started with my day shift...and i am glad to go to office, during officals hours...anyways seems great..ho-pe for some thing good for me in this coming year.....

Anyways...

WISH YA A VERY HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR REPLETE WITH SCINTILLATING NEW ACHIEVEMENTS AND BESTOWED WITH ECSTASY AND ZEAL TOWARDS YOUR AMBITIONS....!

with reverence:

Cheers,

Himanshu

cLiMaTe To FeAr..

Fear is a reactive mechanism that operates when our identity is threatened. It works to dissipate the attention.We move into one of the six realms and react: destroy the threat or seek revenge (hell being), grasp at safety and security (hungry ghost), focus on survival (animal), pursue pleasure as compensation (human), vie for superiority (titan), or protect status and position (god). Because we are less present to what is actually taking place, our actions are correspondingly less appropriate and less effective.

I was reading neha's blog, where she put an some unanswerable things about fear...Y fear ? Fear is what? something that makes you insecure....What one's need in life...Security? Security of what and from whome? Is animals feel the same extent of fears as we feel? If a lion comes to eat a goat is it feels the level fear or insecurity as if for a draowning man in a sea? Is there level of understanding the same at the point of fear...!!?? If Yes, Isnt that make a man and goat somewhat stand at same point...

I dont know how to describe these internal feeling for a fear...but this is something which i really feel difficult to explain....

As of me.. this somthing your routine works..and one find it very difficult to change its routine. This is your kinda roiutine that you have to breath, you have to eat, you have to think and in all you have to live. If someone tries to change your routine you feel herted.So, here comes the fear.. when some tries to stop your routine of life you feel fear and same case is with other things too. If u loosing someone...you feel to be alone and that will change your way of living and you feel fear.A small example..Y we are feared of examz? That dont take our lives...But we are..This is for the same concept if we get failed then we have to study extra and and changes what we dont want. I feel the person having an ability to make changes in him, is much lesser affected to fear.

I dont know what knida existence is this...Grabbling our lifes with fear...will everbe there any Peace..!!

I cry the Tears!!!.................!!

So you think that money is the root of all evil? Money is a tool of exchange, which can't exist unless there are goods produced and men able to produce them. Money is the material shape of the principle that men who wish to deal with one another must deal by trade and give value for value. Money is not the tool of the moochers, who claim your product by tears, or of the looters, who take it from you by force. Money is made possible only by the men who produce. Is this what you consider evil? . . . Not an ocean of tears nor all the guns in the world can transform those pieces of paper in your wallet into the bread you will need to survive tomorrow. Those pieces of paper, which should have been gold, are a token of honor. . . . Or did you say it's the love of money that's the root of all evil? To love a thing is to know and love it's nature. To love money is to know and love the fact that money is the creation of the best power within you, and your passkey to trade your effort for the effort of the best among men. Ayn Rand

Me @ Myself

I feel someone kicking my ass while sleeping with in a dreams of Salma Hayek....These night shifts had made my clock like it is moving anitclock wise. So.. right now in a disorganized state..Dont expect something about reality ..or real facts.....this makes smthing like , ISI terrorist is trying to play a Scrable with Mr. PM/....

I use to come home around 12:30 in afternoon....Use to leave in mid night or early mrning at 1:30...and its really irritating...and despratly praying to God, please move me to next month, so that my shift got changed...While wrking in such a timmings one hardly give much extra time to work..as this makes u so tired...No, time for my relations..not even with my friends and once a moon while i think for a family relations...when they use to work I use to sleep...
Its 12:30 i am back...I dont know..while working i was feeling so much sleepy..but what happen know..Its like i am realeased from a tihar Jail....and i want to spend this sunny morning enjoying....But anyways i have to plan for a sleep...atlast again i have to go there at tihar .....Since it is the place where i have to earn..make myself self independent....
My countdown begins everymonday...Its like cutting the date after coming back.....
So, Finally me going for a sleep with my salma....Night!!

Suddenly...!!

"Anu wake up beta "::)) with a shout "its 10:00 beta"......"Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh(::)".."Haanji Papa"...Here that line come kicking your ass...."Papa please thodi der aur....Main late soya tha"..
Its really disgusting if someone makes u wake a time when u have to go for sleep....
"Beta U have to go for a work..get up take a Bath...mama is even waiting to make a dinner for you..." ...This really screwed my heart...The word bath makes me think of like I am on POK..and some pakki soldiers are firring on and i am running towards my country for help...and more of like someone had thrown a stone on a Honey bees net and i am standing under that....Its so cold outside around a temp of 3 *C and u have to go for a bath ....And the another Word Dinner..seems like it is a breakfast or somthing.....Anyways No option with me.... I have to awake...I really dont wanna leave that quilt..but work is work...

So... my step by step preparations started to leave for office....................!

.........................Movies........With such a schedule..hardly find a time to movies...My movies watching frequencies are diiping like a temprature in Siachin....Movies are like a google for engineering students.....,anyways i have to do something..i want my movie watching days back....
last weekend i went to watch Neel N Nikki..!! anyways dont ask for the exp...but great time pass after loong...I wanna make some rules for me to make my gloriuos days back...


and the day started again...!

I feel I should go for a work...otherewise these people gonna put me in same shift for one more month...ty...